Why hide?
I cry a lot lately. I’m not really sure why. Is it my difficult past? The friends I’ve lost recently? My uncertain future? Is it from the guilt I feel for my husband being stuck with the complete opposite woman than what he married? The thing is, I’m okay with it. Not that my husband ended up with a 170 lb weakling when he married a 125 lb ass kicker, get it done, no nonsense bitch. What I am okay with is my crying. For real. Not that I want to do it in front of others. Or even for them to know about it. But it is what it is. It’s me. I’m going thru so many things lately. The loss of my strength, a challenging business, a father that hasn’t spoken to me in over a year, the deaths of my “mom” and other...
Set yourself free…
This is a note to every individual in the world. Start being kind and respectful of one another. Please! The world is made up of different opinions. That’s what makes life interesting. But it hurts my heart to hear/see the anger and disrespect running rampant again. You don’t have to agree with each other to be friends. And you don’t need put others down because they see things differently than you do. Life is amazing. Being alive is the best gift. You get to do things like eat. And play ball. And feel accomplished at a job well done. And help a neighbor with his broken heater. And put your toes in the sand. You get to dream of the things you want to do. And cheat at monopoly. And dance with your best friend. And cuddle with your chihuahua....
And then you die
Let’s talk about mortality for a minute since I’ve been thinking about it all morning. Everyone must be aware that we are only here for a limited period of time. That is, ignoring religious beliefs for now of course. I mean I wouldn’t mind coming back in another form, like a turtle. Their lives just seem so peaceful. I also wouldn’t mind going another route-ascending into the atmosphere wearing a comfy robe and sandals. Heaven kind of sounds like a spa where it doesn’t matter if you lose your locker key. Nice thoughts. So let’s ignore those ideas for now. If you’re reading this, you probably know that I’ve been sick the last couple years. If you don’t know that you must have been out in the woods...
Yield to pedestrians
If you are visiting my page already, please be kind. It’s a work in progress while I teach myself how to work a website. I have so many ideas that I want to share on here, but each one takes time to create. It’s not just about my blogs, it’s also a place to share my inventions, my artwork and my digital creations. I only have about a half hour every evening to devote to this, and so far it’s mostly about learning the technical stuff. But I’m already hooked. That’s a really good tbing, because it’s a hobby I can do even when my body isn’t cooperating, and also after Mark puts me in palliative care (which hopefully is a ways down the road). It’s also basically a free hobby, which is important these days....
I feel the need, the need for vodka…
I was thinking about this today- So if a cleaning company raises their prices because of how the new laws affect them (OT, health insurance, sick time, minimum wage increase), then my company ends up paying them a higher price because of their employees, AND we pay more for our staff (OT, health insurance, sick time, minimum wage increase). So then if I decide to pass those increases on to my clients, do I pass on both my employee costs and my other overhead costs such as the cleaning company’s increase? So then do my clients then pass on my increase and my cleaners increase and their employee costs increase to their customers? If the answer is yes, then at what point will it stop? Yesterday I saw a receipt from a fine dining restaurant in L.A. that had...
Not now
Have a cocktail. Go to sleep. I’ll still be here tomorrow.