Why hide?

I cry a lot lately. I’m not really sure why. Is it my difficult past?  The friends I’ve lost recently?  My uncertain future?  Is it from the guilt I feel for my husband being stuck with the complete opposite woman than what he married?  The thing is, I’m okay with it.  Not that my husband ended up with a 170 lb weakling when he married a 125 lb ass kicker, get it done, no nonsense bitch.  What I am okay with is my crying.  For real.  Not that I want to do it in front of others.  Or even for them to know about it.  But it is what it is.  It’s me.  I’m going thru so many things lately.  The loss of my  strength, a challenging business, a father that hasn’t spoken to me in over a year, the deaths of my “mom” and other...